Thursday, January 20, 2011

cyber hording

I find that I am unable to delete things from G-mail, Facebook, or my computer's hard drive.
I have thousands of e-mails still in my inbox, and loads of documents or files I will probably never ever use.
However, there is a tiny voice in the back of my head that says, "What if?"
"What if you need to read conversations you had a year and a half ago."
So my inbox is endlessly cluttered. Maybe I'm a sucker for nostalgia.
Maybe I'm afraid of losing evidence. Like maybe I won't remember things clearly without the aid of old chat logs and thousands of photographs which aren't of very good quality.
On the other hand, maybe I don't need to remember every thing that has ever happened in fine detail.
Maybe if I "clean up" I could refresh my brain and clear up emotional and intellectual space for focusing on the present. Maybe I have fallen pray to nostalgia and gotten caught in a loop of relating to and falling back on that which I already know, rather than launching myself into the great unknown.
Hrmmmmmm.

I sort of thought up a whole poem I wanted to write about something, but I haven't been able to make myself sit down to do it yet. The main inspiration was snow. I saw the forecast is snow for Friday and I am going to bez"h be in Brooklyn then so maybe I'll put some pen to paper.

Good Night/Good Morning/Good Afternoon world!

3 comments:

  1. "falling back on that which I already know"- people like to live in their comfort zones. Strip away your comforts and venture beyond. It is better for you.

    The easiest way to get rid of mail that you know you should have deleted a long time ago is to do it in 2 stages- delete it. And then let it sit in the trash folder for a little while just in case you get the urge to save it. But wait until you get into a destructive or a logical mood. Then hit delete, and it is over.

    Easy.

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  2. Why not save your emails? It doesn't cost you anything. If you like having an empty inbox, then just archive everything.

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  3. Good idea Altie. Will give it a try.

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