No particular reason.
Just forgot to go to sleep.
I log onto facebook and notice I got a message.
Further investigation shows that the message is actually a personal one, and not spam from some group or event.
A former roommate of mine made a good quality recording of a song and he wants me to have a listen.
I hit play.
The words start and I am hit by a tidal wave of memories.
He wrote this song with... Dovid.
It has been three months since Dovid passed away.
I can see and hear Dovid playing guitar and singing.
His infectious joy making everyone smile.
We are laughing and horsing around.
Its late at night but this is the room that never sleeps.
Everyone has a beer and sings along.
My eyes get watery with tears which I hold back.
I don't know why I don't let myself cry.
I go to Dovid's facebook wall.
His friends still post on it sometimes.
My roommate posted a link to the song.
Someone told you about how they got a job teaching martial arts.
Someone told you about how life in general is going.
Someone wrote about how they can't wait until the next time yall get to jam together.
Everyone wrote "we miss you."
I haven't really dealt with your passing because I was so scared and so torn up that I drowned out those thoughts and feelings. I couldn't deal with the idea that I won't be seeing you anymore. That we aren't going to get slushies at 711, or driving to some "haunted road" that we read about on the internet. We aren't hanging out anymore.
So I look at things like your on vacation. Pretty soon you'll come back, and we'll all hang out in eretz yisroel together.
So I look at things like your on vacation. Pretty soon you'll come back, and we'll all hang out in eretz yisroel together.
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This is a really moving piece. There isn't much more for me to say but I thought you would appreciate the feedback. Death is a difficult topic to bring up, but you wrote about it in a very touching and honest way. Kol HaKavod.
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